So, this is my last week at Wunderman Thompson, where I’ve worked for the past 4 years as a strategy director, helping some of the world’s biggest brands. Now it’s time to go solo. Time to work out how the heck I build Clementine into a viable business that not only helps women but also delivers revenue.
It’s unfamiliar territory, not being an employee or having a regular income. I’ve only experienced this once before, 24 years ago, not long after I finished school.
So how do I feel? To be honest. I feel relieved not to be a slave to the salary. To no longer be lining someone else’s pocket and creating wealth for others. Of course, trying to carve out new sources of revenue is not going to be easy. But I feel that I have the building blocks and the brain power to do this.
What’s also interesting is that I now also have the motivation. I can no longer rely on a regular salary and as a result, it has given me the rocket I needed to think more commercially.
I am however, feeling completely exhausted. I have nothing left in my tank. I thought the holidays would help. Having my parents here has been amazing too but I’ve still been beavering away in the background. I’ve got loads and loads of ideas, thoughts are whirring around in my head and I can’t really make sense of any of them.
After reading the ‘Imposter Cure’, I’ve recognised that I’ve developed some unhealthy behaviours around how I’ve been approaching work and connecting with success, which are impacting my confidence. So, to move forward, rather than doing, I’m going to give myself permission to stop, reflect and plan.
Here’s my plan for the next 30 days:
– Week 1: Take a Forced Stop. I’m stopping all work. I really believe now that the only way for me to truly get over this burnout is to completely stop. Tinkering around the edges hasn’t given me the headspace I needed. So, I’m giving myself permission, which hasn’t been an easy decision, to stop for a week. No social media, no sending emails, no work, zip, nada, nothing. I will use this week to spend time with my parents before they head back to NZ. I’ve booked myself into yoga that week. I’m taking myself away for a whole day to read a book on my own. This is all about recharging my energy and giving myself some space from work.
– Week 2: Reconnecting with Success & Planning. Before I start any planning, I’m going to spend the day, yep a whole day, dedicated to reviewing all my achievements, stuff that hasn’t gone so well, creating a vision for the future (a vision board). This is super important. I’ve lost sight of what I’ve achieved, what I’m good at and what I really, really want.
Then I’ll be focussed on strategic planning, thinking about the future of Clementine. Where I believe, I should be focussed. A key lens for this will be around money and how I build a sustainable business. Plus, doing some planning around other potential revenue sources where I can leverage my existing skills (like my new online course for aspiring business owners). Oh, and planning my weeks and days so that I have a clear focus every single day, rather than tinkering around with stuff. I’m also going to check out my local fave coffee shop as a potential place to work one day a week, so that I’m not always sat at home.
– Week 3: More Planning. Let’s face it, there is no way that I can get all the planning done in one week so I’m taking two weeks to make sure that I have given this the time and space that it deserves.
– Week 4: Connect. Get out of the house and meet people. I’ve got to get into a better habit of sharing ideas and shaping these with people vs. sitting at home and letting them whirl around my head for yonks and yonks.
Finally, I am no longer going to work evenings, unless I’m running one of my courses or attending something inspiring. Since Jan 2017, I’ve been working most nights and weekends, and it’s become a drag. I will reclaim my evenings for me.
This is an opportunity for me to have a massive reset. I’m excited to see how things pan out now that I can dedicate more time to stuff that brings me joy. That’s the end game surely? Do the things that bring you energy and joy.